Human Being?
It was and is the most real experience I have ever had, and I am facing myself in ways unimaginable.
As far as I can tell, I am working my way towards Being with every fiber of who I am today. There is a full spectrum of the sentiment of Being, and it isn’t always easy. When I slow down and allow myself to be, it comes quite naturally. So there is the state of just being, as mentioned—a type of stillness within, and then there is the aliveness and the realness of Being that requires me to die to what isn’t real on a consistent basis. I am working on Being from each end of this spectrum and hope to meet in the middle someday. Certain astrological transits assist in this, especially with Pluto in the mix (reach out if you feel you are in a death of self moment and are seeking insight; it is an honor to uphold the mirror of stars in these cycles of rebirth).
A Transformative Trine
Venus, Uranus, and Pluto are in a grand trine as I write this, creating a palpable electric current of raw, guttural, transformative energy that moves through your relationships to self, others, finances, and what you value. Perhaps this brings a moment of insightfulness around what really matters to you as you move forward from here. You might meet someone new or, if committed, deepen the conversation with your beloved into or beyond the realm of taboo. Venus is also opposing Neptune, which can create some confusion in the mix. I wouldn’t make major life decisions or jump to conclusions in this dynamic, but I would observe everything, receive the insights, and begin to imagine the possible next steps.
How many of you are in the process of evaluation? Maybe of where you live? How you live? Your livelihood? All of the above? Change is in the air, and the turbulent winds of these provocative curiosities are bound to continue well into next year with some brief pauses in between. If any of you raised your hand, I am with you. And in my personal chart, all I can see is change for the foreseeable future. I feel like I'm surfing this phase of life and mostly enjoying it, no matter how challenged I feel by the unsettledness of it all.
Many of you have asked me to share more about my recent vision quest. It has been 6 months, and I am still very much in the process of learning, unpacking, and integrating while still navigating the many ‘gifts’ and hardships revealed to me in that time. It was and is the most real experience I have ever had, and I am facing myself in ways unimaginable. It is truly rigorous here, within this deep well of Being I am working with, and keeping it somewhat vague is my way of saying—this is a difficult-to-articulate kind of terrain. I did, however, go into some detail in an episode of The Astrotherapy Podcast interview series, Exploring the Edges of Change with Ally Bogard, check out if inspired.
Observing Western Medicine
I recently wrote about Solar Return Charts, and that mine for this year is quite dramatic with Chiron at the helm, conjunct my Midheaven as the director of my fate. The midheaven is the ‘Sun’ at high noon of the chart and gives intensity when a strong player takes the throne for the year ahead in relation to life direction, career choices, and in this case, how a healing crisis begets a new public expression of self. Chiron, a teacher, mentor, guide, healer, mystic, magician, etc., is taking me into the depths of intricately woven pain and traumas in my psyche with a lot of grace and divine support. In this physical plane, I feel the illness seeping out from my core and into a body that is struggling to clear it. There is nothing easeful about this; disease from my childhood emerging, and uncanny synchronistic exposures have activated my immunity into a frenzy. Mysterious and karmic experiences that do not necessarily show up in a blood panel or make sense to your typical Western physician.
In my current journey of study within the realm of Family Constellations (ask me about this work if interested), my teacher shared a quote with our group last week that has always struck a profound chord in me. She paraphrased a saying that is attributed to Krishnamurti, saying, “It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” Inside these words are worlds of contemplation. My inquiry for as long as I can remember has been—how does one well-adjust despite a sick society? That has more of a mental health slant and, also in friends, clients, clients of friends, family members, myself…I’m seeing the state of the world reflected in the state of the body and the need to actively pursue health as a right of Being in our food and self-care with a new fervor than ever before. It is a strong time to be alive and swim upstream in toxic environments, physically, mentally, politically, etc. I invite you to sit with me here and explore what that quote means to you. To Be Human, with Uranus, Pluto, and Venus in trine, feels like an appropriate moment to question authority on all levels with a buoyancy (Moon conjunct Jupiter) toward the truth that lives within you.
I’ve always been an alternative girl, in my healing, in my medicine path, and on my journey. This year, I’ve explored western medicine modalities out of circumstance and a wild insurance process, which has given me incredible insight into the lies and vacuous support of the medical system we are entrenched in this country (US). Not news to many of you, I know. And, I am learning, observing, and taking notes. I feel a rise inside me to reclaim health, not for just myself, but for my community in a way that is founded in truth. I love the new systems (Pluto in Aquarius) emerging to help us find an alternative path while still using the bones of a nearly broken medical infrastructure. And I am excited to see what can happen with an authentic enthusiasm born from knowing what doesn’t work for me and never has.
Here’s to our health and well-Being! All my best to you, and please receive the piece of my heart that lives inside these words,
Thank you for visiting my inner world. If you want to learn more about my work in the outer world, enjoy cielawynter.com and listen to The Astrotherapy Podcast: Interviews | CHANGE here.
We cannot change the world until we accept we are the world. This is the new conversation.