WTF?

Now is a time of unpredictability and large waves to surf.

Way too far. In the present moment, I’m peering over an edge into a future I somehow didn’t anticipate. I’m not speaking about my personal life, although I could certainly be looking from that vantage point and say the same thing. Instead, I’m observing and speaking to the momentous shifts occurring at an inconceivable rapid pace within the collective of our humanity, fueled by technology and the intentions behind it. I question what those end goals are. Remember the social network movie? And how that was mild compared to where we are clearly headed? Who even knows the end goals at this point, unless it is world domination or the ultimate destruction of what is good in the world…Too glass half empty? It seems there are evildoers out there laughing behind closed doors, watching humanity squirm in perpetual discomfort in exchange for their personal gain. And yet! I see, know, and live amidst the doers of good and goodness that inspire each other regardless of whether the nonsensical has become an “agreed-upon” norm.

Way too far. That’s how it feels right now when I peer into the justifications of most world leaders about why they are doing what they are doing, if they even care to justify at all. I recently heard a woman speak of her firsthand accounts of being on war-torn soil. It was devastating, gritty, and atrocious. It was real. Her primary message was something I think most of us overlook purposefully, which is the repetitive unconscious thought that people’s lives and families being destroyed “over there” won’t happen “over here”. And her evident experience as a lactation nurse amidst the destitute reality of very sick babies born into a future of starvation challenged the concept of war in general. She suggested we stop using the word war altogether. It seems we’ve gone way too far.

I say we in the (we)’ve gone way too far—because we’re not separate. My actions impact you. Your actions impact me. It may not be obvious, but multiply 1 action for every one of the over 8 billion humans on this planet, and that is a force to reckon with.

A Wild Ride of a Decade

This has been a very potent decade, and we’re only (almost) halfway through. I knew when Pluto and Saturn came together in conjunction with the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Cancer on January 10th, 2020, that this decade would rock our world, and it has. From a global pandemic to wars emerging on nearly every continent in some shape or form—physically, intellectually, spiritually, or otherwise, most of us reading this have never seen such events hit the world stage. Right now, we are in the midpoint of said decade, and rather than an intermission, the seats are hotter than ever, and the ride, even more wild. Not boring!

When Pluto (Lord of the Underworld) and Saturn (Lord of Karma) came together in conjunction in Capricorn during that Full Moon, their Beingness of togetherness planted seeds for a destructive revolution within the governing structures of our global political sphere. It was an unearthing of the shadows lurking inside of power dynamics and a glimpse into the karma of previous actions and abuses of power, especially by the United States, which underwent its Pluto Return on February 20th, 2022.

So what do I mean when I say, way too far? It seems we have already written a future that we will live into faster than expected, and far from what we imagined from our limited minds. Now is a time of unpredictability and large waves to surf. I suppose it is a good time to make sure our boards are waxed and ready, come what may, and also not forget to enjoy the ride, as challenging as it may be. What I love about this moment, despite my mind turning inside while working to comprehend reality at a much faster clip than is comfortable, is that it is a time of prioritization and reevaluation. Out with the old and in with what matters. You matter, your heart, vision, voice, and connection to the sacred within you… matter.

Lessons Through Life & Death

Life matters, and so does Death. Threads of time weave the end of an era. My heart is aching, and I’ve felt so deeply uncomfortable as Uranus conjunct Sun pulses with intense change throughout my visceral reality. My grandmother passed on the Scorpio Moon, and I’m processing grief in layers upon layers. There is something so deeply painful about death, and yet I know she was ready. She had lived so many years missing and longing for my grandfather, never feeling whole since he left this Earth. She has taught me through her life (and now death) how the later years are so rich with deep lessons of love and letting go. And I am thankful we have most of our lives to work up to that kind of wisdom (we may eventually earn—not a guarantee).

Her life and death span across this current threshold of change like an invitation I just can’t say no to. As much as I might resist, I know what I resist, persists. Death is in the air(borne diseases), gun violence and mass murders, a decade full of deaths to millions in wars on not-so-distant lands for some, and for others, within their homes. Death of a time before AI, when we hadn’t lost our cognitive ability to think for ourselves. I’m not saying this has fully happened yet, but we could be there in warp speed if we default to asking AI all the questions our mind generates without first searching for the answer inside. Inner knowing, intuition, and the ability to contemplate could atrophy. The brain may stagnate, as emotions numb, and the addiction to technology could become like an oxygen tank of necessity rather than a tool for connection and creativity as it once was advertised. Are we there yet?

Way too far. I don’t think I have to explain my point further, although I could. So here we are, and thankfully, from what I can see, is that beyond the death, is rebirth. Spring does emerge, and it is life. It is breath. It is the beginning of the New. Please keep this in mind when the death spirals of what roto-roots through the headlines, ups the anxiety, and pulls on your nervous system. There is no going back, but we can go forward. And I personally don’t want to live into the dream of some tech geek who just so happens to be able to program their reality into our pockets and private lives. Instead of resisting, in this new era of Saturn and Neptune moving into Aries, prepare for more hard truths, fiery and stern reality checks, and an incredible opportunity to get into alignment with your integrity (Saturn enters this week on May 24th and Neptune has been heating up in this fire sign since March 30th). If each of us who creates the 8.20 billion humans on earth took a step closer toward integrity as a rebellious act of rebirth, we could shake the world and perhaps neutralize the imbalance of way too far into an equilibrated welcome to freedom, Aries style.

All my best to you, and please receive the piece of my heart that lives inside these words,

Thank you for visiting my inner world. If you want to learn more about my work in the outer world, enjoy cielawynter.com and listen to Season 1 of my podcast here.

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We cannot change the world until we accept we are the world. This is the new conversation.